I've had this blog for three weeks now, yet these are the first words I'm writing here. What the heck am I so afraid of? The answer to that question would be EVERYTHING. Maybe that's because a lot of things I've said or done in the past have been misconstrued or twisted around to make me look like a bad person. Or maybe it's because those words and actions were twisted by people who feed off using others as stepping stones. I'm not gonna be the stepping stone anymore. Get your own way up and out, insecure assholes. Writing stuff down is supposed to be therapeutic. If you get it out, you can move past it, or so I'm told. Guess I'll be able to state whether I agree with that statement in time. I think I'm finally writing things down because I'm just tired of being invisible. When you're fat, you would think it's really hard to be invisible, but it's not at all. At least in my case, I use my weight as a way to hide from the world. I think I've just been convinced my whole life that I don't deserve anything good to happen, so how dare I do or say anything to better myself to try to increase the odds of that happening!!!! No one should think they're not good enough to be less than 100% happy. So, here goes nothing. My quest to be happy. Goal #1 No negative thoughts or words about myself.
I will always be a work in progress.
